There once was a 14-year-old girl named McCall who didn’t know how to fit into her own body. Her resulting sadness launched a 15-year long journey through the pitfalls of dieting pills, along the cliff edge of weight loss at any cost, down the narrow path of making a choice to recover, and into the breakthrough of discovering an antidote to shame.
Along the way, we'll chat with Dr. Ovidio Bermudez about the dangers of diet pills, Adderall, and laxatives.
Beautiful, intelligent, outgoing, quirky, sensitive, witty, magnetic, creative, loving, compassionate, intuitive… Over six years ago these words did not exist in my self description vocabulary. I was drowning in a pool of self-hatred, a prisoner in my own mind suffering from a severe eating disorder. For over fifteen years, my life was strung together with exhausting efforts to achieve an unrealistic ideal of perfection. The scale and the size of my jeans dictated my day, my mood and my life. On the outside, I seemingly had it all together, but I was slowly killing myself behind closed doors.
I felt I was destined to live in my secret hell, until one day a friend came along, took my hand and guided me to the help I so desperately needed. It took me months to say eating disorder, and even longer to admit the severity of my illness. Not me, it was not possible. I was the picture perfect southern girl: handsome husband, beautiful family, great career, busy social life. And while all of my blessings were very real, I was never able to be fully present in my life. I pushed everyone away, even my husband, to protect my secret – my eating disorder.
In the fall of 2010, I deteriorated very quickly, both mentally and physically. I hit rock bottom. I no longer had the energy to put on the happy face. I wanted to go to sleep and never wake up. It took me hitting rock bottom to realize the severity of my illness. With the help, love and support of my therapist and my husband, I found the courage to admit myself into treatment. Learn more about Southern Smash here and follow them on Facebook here!
- Nicknames: M-C, Mimsy, McManing, McDempsey, Call
- Favorite activities: anything on the beach, yoga and paddle boarding.
- Favorite food: mexican (all day every day), boiled crabs, avocado
- Favorite teams: Ole Miss, LSU Tigers, Saints, UNC Tar Heels
- Favorite Show: Ellen Show (Going to a taping is at the top of my bucket list)
- Most grateful for: my two babies
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